Thursday, November 20, 2003

from a book i borrowed from a friend (thanks phoebe =D)

The voice often comes in the middle of the night or the early hours of morning, when our hearts are most unedited and vulnerable. At first, we mistake the source of this voice and assume it is just our imagination. We fluff up our pillow, roll over, and go back to sleep. Days, weeks, even months go by and the voice speaks to us again: Aren't you thirsty? Listen to your heart. There is something missing.
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In our modern, pragmatic world we often have no such mentor [as Eli, who helped Samuel when he heard God's voice], so we do not understand it is God speaking to us in our heart. Having been so long out of touch with our deepest longing, we fail to recognize the voice and the One who is calling to us through it. Frustrated by our heart's continuing sabotage of a dutiful Christian life, some of us silence the voice by locking our heart away in the attic, feeding it only the bread and water of duty and obligation until it is almost dead, the voice now small and weak. But sometimes in the night, when our defenses are down, we still hear it call to us, oh so faintly -- a distant whisper. Come morning, the new day's activities scream for our attention, the sound of the cry is gone, and we congratulate ourselves on finally overcoming the flesh.

The Sacred Romance by Brent Curtis & John Eldredge


powerful stuff... =)

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

THE INTERVIEW WITH GOD


I dreamed I had an interview with God.

“So you would like to interview me?” God asked.

“If you have the time” I said.

God smiled. “My time is eternity.”
“What questions do you have in mind for me?”

“What surprises you most about humankind?”

God answered...
“That they get bored with childhood,
they rush to grow up, and then
long to be children again.”

“That they lose their health to make money...
and then lose their money to restore their health.”

“That by thinking anxiously about the future,
they forget the present,
such that they live in neither
the present nor the future.”

"That they live as if they will never die,
and die as though they had never lived.”

God’s hand took mine
and we were silent for a while.

And then I asked...
“As a parent, what are some of life’s lessons
you want your children to learn?”

“To learn they cannot make anyone
love them. All they can do
is let themselves be loved.”

“To learn that it is not good
to compare themselves to others.”

“To learn to forgive
by practicing forgiveness.”

“To learn that it only takes a few seconds
to open profound wounds in those they love,
and it can take many years to heal them.”

“To learn that a rich person
is not one who has the most,
but is one who needs the least.”

“To learn that there are people
who love them dearly,
but simply have not yet learned
how to express or show their feelings.”

“To learn that two people can
look at the same thing
and see it differently.”

“To learn that it is not enough that they
forgive one another, but they must also forgive themselves.”

"Thank you for your time," I said humbly.

"Is there anything else
you would like your children to know?"

God smiled and said,
“Just know that I am here... always.”

-author unknown

Friday, November 07, 2003

today at cbs, nathan talked about salt. yes, salt. and how we should be the salt and light of the world. not just salt that sits on the shelf and looks good, has a nice label, is in a good, comfortable spot on the shelf, and has a nice container. rather, the purpose of salt is to add flavor and life to something by permeating it. permeating: to pass through something and spread. we need to permeate the world w/ God's love overflowing from us. and not just be "shelved" christians.

just another interesting perspective of "stepping out" of your box, boat, comfort zone....or container.

Thursday, November 06, 2003

i can't remember where i read this or how or why, but i thought it was really cool. essentially, it said that we should be patient when we pray. we often expect God to answer our prayers immediately, but sometimes it takes time for His answer to reach us. the example it presented was that paul (i think, well one of those guys...) prayed and it took the angel michael (i think =p) 21 days to reach him. so... it went on to say that we often forget that there is spiritual warfare being waged around us constantly. so we need to learn to distinguish between "no" and "not yet."

also, yesterday i was reminded of something i heard at cbs retreat. our small group leader at retreat, fara, told us as we were discussing faith and hope, "Hope is listening to the music of the future. Faith is dancing to it now."

so that's my little tid bit for now. hope you enjoyed it =)

Tuesday, November 04, 2003

JelloFer39: oh
JelloFer39: my
JelloFer39: goodness
bluish JeLi blob: ????????
JelloFer39: could your hair possibly have been.. *gasp* curled for masquerade ball?
JelloFer39: *GASP*
bluish JeLi blob: oh HAHA...
bluish JeLi blob: just like 2 strands
JelloFer39: but still.. curled!
JelloFer39: haha
bluish JeLi blob: and yes... done w/o consent :-P
JelloFer39: hahaha
JelloFer39: now that's more like it
bluish JeLi blob: HEY!!!!
bluish JeLi blob: who's side are you on ANYWAY?!?!
JelloFer39: hahahahha

Monday, November 03, 2003

luish JeLi blob: oh man
bluish JeLi blob: i was reading your blog...
bluish JeLi blob: ...
JelloFer39: which part
JelloFer39: haha
bluish JeLi blob: uh, EVERYTHING??
bluish JeLi blob: well mostly ones w/ niti...
bluish JeLi blob: HAHA
JelloFer39: hehehe